How does it feel ....

This friend of mine asked me, How it feels to be engaged? Couldn't find an answer then. I think I can attempt one now.

Everything feels the same, but time doesn't seem to move quite as fast as it used to. Feels like time has slowed only to allow me to enjoy this period of my life. Can't complain really. I like how I feel right now.

Things that used to annoy me still annoy me. Things that used to make me happy still make me happy. Just that the intensity which used to be there is not there anymore. It's been replaced by this, for lack of a better word, "thing".

Everything else seems to matter a little less. There is only one dominant thought on my mind. I can't seem to get it out of my head. I don't want to get it out of my head.

I like the fact that I am now looking forward to something more than just the weekend. A smile find its way on to my face with relative ease.

Feels comfortable. Feels nice. And most importantly, feels right.

Love at First Sight

I didn't watch Saawariya. I did watch Dilli 6.

Sonam Kapoor is nothing short of drop dead gorgeous.

Why people will ever look at Deepika Padukone, I'll never understand.

I'm in love with Sonam Kapoor.

Suffering from serious case of Time Sickness

Thats just my way of saying I'm drowning in nostalgia.

One wonders why people have always been fascinated with the concept of time travel. I think it has something to do with the human obsession of wanting something that can never be had.

It's one thing to grow old and its totally another to grow old gracefully. I really don't buy this you can stay young at heart crap. A 20 year old behaving like a 20 yaer old is normal. A 60 year old thinking and acting like a 20 year old is just plain creepy.

It's not about the age really, it's about what comes with that age.

Me, six years ago, is nothing like me now. That doesn't scare me. I liked who I was then. I like who I am now. Sometimes, every now and then, the grass appears greener on the other side.

There's this odd feeling that I'm not doing everything I should be doing. I'm holding back. I don't know on what or why. But I just know I am. Six years back I didn't have this feeling.

Does age increase your expectations so you feel you are not doing enough ?? Or does age just make you senile and rob you of the courage to do outrageous things in life ??

Natural progression would indicate that age implies experience which in turn provides the impetus for rational behaviour.

Problem is, rational behaviour does nothing for personal satisfaction.

Damn it, I think this has a lot to do with the music I've been listening to. Been listening to this song called Venice Dawn. Check it out. Perhaps this song will get a better reaction out of you.

Life is going in circles

I remember reading somewhere - History doesn't repeat itself, historians repeat themselves.

I kinda don't agree with that.

I know I've felt the way I do right now sometime before right now. Something about my life obviously brings about the same reaction in me - each time, every time.

I'm not going to try to figure this out. I don't think I really care anymore. Not that it matters.

This is how I feel right now

If there was ever a song that could capture my mood right this instant, this is it.




This is "A Punchup at A Wedding" by RadioHead.

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i don’t know why you bother
nothing's ever good enough for you.
i was there and it wasn't like that.
you’ve come here just to start a fight
you had to piss on our parade
you had to shred our big day
you had to ruin it for all concerned
in a drunken punch-up at a wedding
yeah
hypocrite opportunist
don't infect me with your poison
a bully in a china shop
when i turn ‘round you stay frozen to the spot
your pointless snide remarks
of hammerheaded sharks
the pot will call the kettle black
it’s a drunken punch-up at a wedding yeah
oh no no